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Nursing with a Movement Disorder

Nursing with a Movement Disorder

Beka Serdans | NursingLink

Intensive Care nursing with dystonia is not for the faint of heart, but it’s really doable.

Okay, so how did a wannabe artist/photographer end up working nights surrounded by medical equipment and really sick people?

I blame it on my father. Of course, he’s not here to defend himself anymore, but take my word for it, there was no way that he was going to let any of his three daughters become starving artists.

So now I’m a semi-starving nurse. When I started (not all that long ago…in dog years), my salary was $8.65 an hour. I do earn a bit more these days but Bernie Madoff never solicited me for investment opportunities.

What’s rather interesting is that we seem to pay more for interior decorators than we do for the people we depend on to save our lives.

Anyway, I put aside artistic dreams for the reality of mastering the science and art of critical care nursing. There was this side of me that was fascinated by some of the “big” questions in medical care, like “What do you do when all the body’s organs start failing? How do you help those people who are truly suffering without resorting to Jack Kevorkian measures?” Solving analytical problems humanely seemed (and seems) far more rewarding than photographing magnificent images (although I still find tremendous pleasure stealing away and capturing the world through a view finder).

Oddly enough, my professional journey through medicine intersected with a personal medical condition… one that would remain undiagnosed and treated for five years. Some doctors said that my facial tics (hemifacial spasms) and strange pains were due to stress or some hysterical “woman’s disease.” Yes, we’re talking this century.

Finally I picked the right door (it happened to be at Mount Sinai in New York City) and walked out with a few names and treatments for a disease that affected my head but was not “in my head.”

I started my nursing career with dysphonia, cervical dystonia and even general dystonia (too bad they didn’t give medals for ranks; I’d have been able to pin a few ribbons on my scrubs). Early treatments might have been much more fun if they were given for cosmetic reasons but the Botox, Myobloc and eventually the Deep Brain Stimulation (DBS) were prescribed to ease some less than glamorous symptoms.

Now, how much trust would you put in a nurse who twitched and twisted (and not to dance music)? Not much. So, at first, I worked in a soft cervical collar that allowed me to perform sensory tricks that convinced me that my body was aligned and not twitching and twisting.

Well, that didn’t last too long. I thought I was doing a terrific acting job (perhaps even considered for a Tony or an Oscar) but as patients began asking me “What’s wrong with you? Are you in pain? Should I call a doctor, a nurse?” I knew the gig was up…at least when it came to sensory illusions.

What next? Retirement at 30 was not exactly an option so I figured out a way to continue doing what I loved despite the pain and the drugs and the brain surgery. Has it been worth it? Yes. Am I an effective nurse? Ask my patients. Do I wish I could wake up and discover this has only been a long, bad dream? You bet.

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    giftideasformen

    about 3 years ago

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    vivjohn

    almost 5 years ago

    6 comments

    This was a wonderful story! I have chronic neuropathic pain which is severe and intolerable without opiate pain killers. I could not work in such an intense environment so I am completely impressed with Beka's fortitude. Very inspirational!

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    patyg

    almost 5 years ago

    6 comments

    Great article!

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    creighton

    about 5 years ago

    4 comments

    OH yes i can relate 27 years of nursing inthe ED or ER like I always say. Yes no eating; no going to the bathroom; no charting!!Then my mothewr was dx'd with cancer (breast) the radiologist had missed it the year before! SNARL Then my husband of 15 years literally waks OU THE DOOR!! MY wonderful mother does not survive! And then I was dx'd with MS and I can not work any more!! Just a little story of my life!! coloradonurse78@yahoo.com

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