Well, I dont say much on NL like I use to.  I had my MRI 2 monthes ago, which was the second one from when I was first diagnosed with MS.  I still drive, clean house, plot what Im gonna save on my dvr, go to church and do other things.  For this last month at my request my neurologist had my undergo testing to see if I would be a danger to the public if I wanted to go back to work.  Ive keep renewing my  nursing license every year hoping they will see if its will be safe for me to do so.  Now when I left my job..........I left voluntarily..............I hadnt killed anyone or caused a life threatening issue to one of my patients when I left.  I got my result planning to call my former employers and say " hey, Im better"..   But truth is Im turning into a turnip.  I've lost so much perception and intellect over the last 2 years that Im gonna be like Forest Gump.  Maybe I could run down to the Gulf and be a shrmp boat captain.  When he was comparing my percentages from 2 years ago my IQ was in the 99th nathional percentile.  My scores today were in the national 73 percentile.  Nope, Im suddenly terrified to drive out of my county.  I only drive to my mom's home who is about 8 miles away, thats about it.  No more thoughts about WOCN accreditation.................finishing my BSN would be a crock.  God bless all of you.  We should never have let my mom go to this appointment with us today.  She was asking questions "could MS be caused by battery?...............aka ex husband #1.  He said he didnt know that my MS could have been caused by the incident she was speaking of.  All I cdould see was that my mom was in pain and was trying to find out why her daughter is now like this.  She didn't deserve that.  I tried to make a couple of jokes to change the subject like "jackass #2  was about as bad but its all in the past and since I hit the Jackpot with #3............I won.  He then took us out to dinner. So it sux..........Im getting retarded, and my mom is sad.  God Bless yall!

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Thanks Teresa............Im still in shock.  You know what stinks?  When I looked at my nursing license that was sent in a few weeks ago <kept in a kitchen drawer> I pulled it out and looked at it.  My first thought was to rip it up but then saw the name on it.  It had my name prior to my last marriage.  Its kind of funny in a warped way.  I suppose I could send the state of Georgia another copy of my marriage license to them again, lol.  How come this is the 2rd time I would have to do that? Well, Im gonna marrinate on that for a little while and not get bent out of shape .

 Just out of curiosity.............would anybody in their right mind think Im a danger to the public?  Even if I dont go back to Cardiac rehab?  Geez........Id get a migrain reading ekgs.........so nope.  I was thinking If I could even just sit be fat tush in a docs office doing an h&p, and chapheroning crotch watching junk.  Is even drop to lpn pay just to get out of the house.  I get disability based on all of the income I've made since I was 16.  I want to start paying taxes...........plus when you've been use to making your own money for so long and for since I put this post on NL, I got my new Merrill's catalogue in.   Nope..........It wouldnt be fair for me to whine for ANOTHER pair of $100 sandals.  Maybe somebody could pick a fight with me over this and say something like "enjoy the ride".  Thats sickning.  Actually Im in a mood because Obama Is picking a fight with Mitt Romny <SP> because he feels he deserves to know all Mitt's taxes during all of the 90's.  Well............maybe if Obama publishes us with his college records, gps...........etc...........plus   why did we  never get that birth certificate until a few  monthes ago.  Plus has that birth certificate been truly authenticated?  Anyhow...............toodles Terry, please dont be too upset with me.  

Hi Angie. 

I know that it is easy to be pissed and sad about it at the same time.  After a cauda equida episode in 2000, my back pain levels kicked me up to the Morphine level again.  Later, about a dozen other drugs added, spinal cord stimulator, wheelchair, rhisotomy (burned a bunch of sacral sensory nerves to decrease the pain in my legs) among a bunch of other things.

My symptoms were so bad at one time (when I thought I was on even-keel), that I freaked-out a bit when I realized that the PA was doing an MS work-up on me.  I just looked at her and asked her if I was right, she said yes, I said - That bad? and she said yes again.

I missed that bullet that time.  But I have an inkling of the feeling (? terror) associated with that diagnoses.

I voluntarily retired my license as well.  No sense in being blamed for something.  If they were to test my blood and see all of the narcs in the system, the lawyers would be screaming IMPAIRED NURSE, even if I wasn't even in the building and I would probably still lose my butt in court.

Hope that you are doing well.

God bless and care for you.

Tom

Tom and Angie....I guess the only thing that I can say is God Bless you both... You are both very inspirational people in my life and I am grateful for that...Hugs, Teresa

Hya Bro, Have you gotten into a Pain Management DR... They will give you exactly what you want..Just be careful, That's where I got into trouble... Hugs an Love to you, Sis  xoxox

God bless you...It's a real crime how they can prescribe such dangerous drugs....Hugs, Sis

I got ya...Hugs, Sis