first off i just want to congradulate everyone on these posts who passed nclex's all nurses. Especially the ones who struggled with failing and didnt give up. I took my nclex for the third time today for my pn in princeton Nj. Im not doing so well and saw that these seemed like a good support group. I study very hard, i dont think i study the right way, and have had a learning disability since i was eight. Since I was 5 years old i wanted to be a nurse especially geriatrics its my favorite field, i adore it, and volunteer in my spare time. I started off as a CNA to pay for school, making it through the lpn prgram was a dream come true for me that i thought i could never accomplish r/t the fast pace. I graduated. After failing my nclex the first time i hired a tutor, I took it again in a few months and improved on content areas but still failed. I joined a feur nursing program for my third time even tho i knew i didnt have to until i failed 3 consecutive times. But after failing twice i actually asked my family to pay for it as a birthday gift bc i new it would help me pass. I walked in feeling so confident on saturday it shut down after 85 questions, my test consisted for alot of conference, priority, and as you all know s.a.t.a. I know that just because i got the last one wrong it doesnt mean i failed, but guys im so ******* scared to do the pearson vue trick bc i dont think i can handle another fail, im trying to think positive. And honestly i think i may have passed, but i also dont know, (im sure you all know the feeling.) i belive education is a priveledge it sucks sometimes, but i work so hard and i want this so bad, and hears my question and please dont think im giving you some sobe story im not, i just want an honest opinion. If i pass on my third time i will be the happiest 24 yearold in the world on monday, if i dont god i dont know if i can handle the depression anymore. My family thinks im not cut out for nursing because they hafta be smart, quick learners. my mother told me its dissapoints her more that i actualy study and fail verse not applying myslef and failing, basically saying im not bright. I have always been great at clinical, i didnt make errors and am a good nurse graduate, but if i fail 3 times after having a 30 hour refreshment course should i pick a different career. i wana check the pvt trick so bad but part of me needs to relax, the other part of me wants to see i passed and just see im a ******* nurse you know? if i dont make it this time, do you guys think patients and myslef would be better off if i picked a different career. If i fail a third time, im gona be depressed, ****** up in the head, and histerical for a week, after i grieve, should i find something else, bc i feel like a ******* idiot and i dont even know if i passed yet, im not trying to be pesimistic, im hoping to pass, but preparing for a possible situation that may need a new plan. Does anyone have any advice? im sory if i sound like a fuking rec i just i dont know if im smart enough for this, and im not saying that for attention, i just want a real opinion.

thank you for reading this. I give you guys alot of credit its weird i wana know if i passed yesterday(3rd time) but im scared to do the pvt trick n quick results, idk why i guess i  call it fof fear of failure