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I have been lost for 4 yrs.

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Sarah_goofing_012_max50

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I loved being a nurse. Of course there were days I wanted to leave and drive off a bridge, but I loved my patients. The politics are at every place you work, so after I learned them, I stayed in jobs for a long time.
I was an LPN for 20 years. The first 3 or 4 yrs I kind of hopped around, I was young and had to learn the secret to longevity.
After that, I only had 3 more jobs in 17 yrs. Being a nurse was ingrained in me. I was good at it and I loved it. Then I moved away to another city and just about immediately got sick. I had a severe kidney infection and back pain, so I landed in the hospital for 5 days, never to return to work again.
I had continually worse pain as time went on. I had to move back home, really to my mothers home and here I still am, 4 1/2 yrs later. Fibromyalgia, severe and all the goodies that go with it.
I am lost,have lost everything, my own home, my income, and eventually my car. But that is nothing compared to what I have lost mentally. I have lost such a big part of me and after a lot of "looking", I still have a big void. I am on the downslide to 50 and nothing else. I have a 12 yr old daughter, and I am her mother, but I was that in my "before life".
I have tried to think what I could do in the nursing field with all my physical limitations; very limited walking, standing is even worse. I shuffle a million times an hour sitting in a chair. The hard computer chair is the most comfortable in the house. My memory is shot, called fibro fog. I can't sleep at night, doze off all through the day. I take a handful of medicine twice daily and 2 or 3 pills through the day. Two meds cause drowsiness, methadone and robaxin. Would you hire me to take care of your mother or husband? I wouldn't feel safe taking care while I am in this condition. I applied for Social Security Disability and am STILL waiting for a hearing. What is for the rest of my life? Sitting here taking pills every day, still having breakthrough pain, for the rest of my life. I am 46. I know this is a severe case, but is there anyone else that has had problems after not being able to work as a nurse? Any suggestions or comments for me?

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Melanie, what about healthcare recruiter? you can work out of your home. There are a few expenses right out off you would need, such as a business license and LLC. You mostly need a telephone with unlimited long distance, a computer, and the want to make yourself a success.

Just a year ago, I suffered from a profound and complete hearing loss in my right ear. I had been an OR nurse for ov 28 years and other than 2 years on a med surg and an orthopaedic floor this what I had done. I had just started a new position, having decided to stop traveling. I realized, all to soon, I could not hear well enough anymore to work in the OR and keep my patients safe. I asked to be trained in another area of nursing, but administrators and their lawyers decided I was to much of a liability so I was forced to resign or they would terminate me. Of course the terms of termination would not be I couldn't hear, but a fabricated story of I lied when I said I had the experience I had. I couldn't believe it. I had been a travel nurse for almost ten years with many of the hospitals I worked at renewing my contract sometimes for more than a year. All of my evaluations were outstanding and every single facility told me I was welcome to return at any time. So, here I was stuck, with no position, no income and so very depressed and discouraged I didn't know what to do. I started to work as an RN in home health care, with my pay going to about a 1/3 from what I was accustomed to. So I continued to search for something better to do and found health career recruiting. It takes awhile to get going but it's lucrative, fun and rewarding. This is why I suggested it.

Law5_max50

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Rate This | Posted about 5 years ago

 

Your emotional, physical and spiritual health must come first. You must be a very strong and courageous person to have survived what you have already been through. I know first hand what some of those losses can be like. The book " Living Well with a Hidden Disability" by Stacy Taylor found at www.amazon.com has helped me and many other nurses that I have known in similar circumstances. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! Please read my story " New Purpose for an Old Career". It can be found by going to the Home page of this site, by clicking on the link "Meet Our Career Experts". Once on the "Featured Authors" page, my articles can be found under my name--Laura Wisniewski.
Sincere best wishes on your road to recovery.

Nana_and_grandkids_minus_noah_max50

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My heart goes out to you. I hope you do receive disability. You should! While nursing is your first love, maybe you should consider other avenues of employment at this stage of your life. There are many jobs where your experiences as a nurse, your compassion and your interest in people could be truly beneficial. Don't give up! When a door closes, a window opens up. Concentrate on the things you have to be thankful for-a daughter, a place to live, the support of your family. Keep believing in yourself. There is a story I read that I love- It's about an angel that was always complaining because his cross was too big and too heavy. Finally, God took him to a huge room. It was filled with all kinds of crosses, all shapes and sizes. God told the angel to look around and choose one he liked better. Then he could trade his if he liked. The angel walked around and around the room. But every cross he saw was bigger than his or heavier. After awhile, he picked up his old cross and walked out. He never complained again.

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P.S. Keep your faith! / How do you know if your mission here on earth is done? If you're alive, it's not!