I have a head ache.  I have been through so much tumoil, its starting to really affect me.  My husband went away at the beginning of August and left me with no money.  I was working part time and had to start working full time to make up for his part of the expenses.  When he left, he left with many credit card bills and school loans, owing close to $30,000 total.  If and when he comes back those bills will still have to be addressed cuz paying that back + penalties will take away from our family income.  One of my daughters is having medical issues right now that require me to take her to a specialist and have quite a few tests performed to rule out any other issues she might have.  She has just started school and I had to apply for a waiver for school fees and apply for the free lunch program for her.  That was a big deal too cuz this is the first year I am applying for this aid and apparently cuz I have paid for her in the past, I need to be approved by a special board.  I have just started back to school myself and am repeating a class that I failed the first time I took it.  I can not fail again or I will be kicked out of the nursing program at my school.  I have been sick for the past 2 weeks and have had a cold or allergies or something that has finally landed in my ears and I am very clogged up and am getting some pretty bad headaches.  Last but not least, I just found out today a friend of mine from high school just died from a life long illness she has been batteling.  She was 30 years old.  All of these problems are so much to handle that I feel like I'm losing my mind.  I'm trying to keep it together but its just getting more and more difficult.  I pray that things will start to look up for me and my family.  I know I have always been a strong person but I don't know why God has dealt me the cards I'm playing right now.  Thank you for reading my passage.  At least blogging has been a bit of a stress reliever for me. 

The Lord only gives us what we can handle.  Obstacles in life make us stronger.  I understand owing school loans and other bills, trust me.  Your headaches are probably due to being over stressed, and worried.  I know it is hard, but take all of the negative and make something positive out of it.  You will get to where you are going and you will be a stronger person when you get there.

Darlin' my husband left me after 25 years of marriage. We have been separated 6 years the end of this coming October. People used to ask me why I didn't divorce him and my answer was and still is, I will not pay for his good times. I can truthfully say, these past 6 years have been hard, financially and the first year was emotionally. I wouldn't go back with him for anything this world has to offer. And it's true, God never gives you more than you can handle. Continue to pray and we will pray for you too. Keep your faith, He will never lead you down the wrong path. Let God be your best friend. It works. Don't go away. Let us know how things go with you. Will help if I can.

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.  I am suprised that there were even any responses to my post.  I know it will slowly but surely start to get better ( I'm not sick anymore so that's a start ) but I have never had it this bad before.  I think I will contact my Dr's office to get a referral to talk to someone too cuz I have many issues to deal with.  I may not know you guys in person but to read your responses means so much to me that it gives me hope.  Thank you and I will gladly return thoughts and prayers to anyone who needs it.  Angie Rivas

Angie_ri78 says ...

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.  I am suprised that there were even any responses to my post.  I know it will slowly but surely start to get better ( I'm not sick anymore so that's a start ) but I have never had it this bad before.  I think I will contact my Dr's office to get a referral to talk to someone too cuz I have many issues to deal with.  I may not know you guys in person but to read your responses means so much to me that it gives me hope.  Thank you and I will gladly return thoughts and prayers to anyone who needs it.  Angie Rivas

I'm glad you're calling your Dr for a referral for someone to talk with.  Personally I think it's the right step forward.  I hope everything soon eases up and you don't feel so overwhelmed.  If there is anything I can do personally, please feel free to email me.

Angie, sorry I did not see this before. You have some good adivice here from damaze and the others. Hang in there. we are all here if you need us but youneed some support and help they we can't offer through cyber space. Glad to hear you made the call. (:

Angie.. I too have been through a situation similar to yours.  The only thing I can say is 1.  There is no debtors' prison (I found that to be true), 2., you do have much on your plate, but think of what is more important right now..... your daughter and your schooling.  Let the bill collectors and the judgmental people all go to hell....tell yourself every day you are not alone, as you have friends (cyber) that will support you through their own wisdom gained having been through similar situations.  There is nothing like the power of women friends.  Also, feel your fear, own it and DO IT ANYWAY!  As for your friend, honor her in doing what you originally set out to do.... take care of your daughter and become a nurse.  Another thing is to pray, prayer works wonder for the soul.  Believe in miracles, as they do happen, I can certainly attest to that.

I'm glad you made the call to the Dr.  That is the first step to getting your thoughts under control.  If there is anything I can do to help, please feel free to email me. 

Eileen