I will keep them in my prayers....

Here is the latest journal entry from Aaron, Cole's dad:

You know when you are on your way to a conference room for a meeting with just about everybody involved in Cole's case that the news you are about to here can't be good. We walked in to this conference room with seven doctors and specialists looking on as we walked in. Never have I felt so week, hearing only the buzzing of the halogen lights on the ceiling. No pictures on the grey walls with the exception of the loud clock. Never would I have imagined I would be in this position in regards to Cole. What we were about to here was something that you would typically hear on the news or radio and just couldn't imagine having to go through something like this. Immediately my thoughts went to the family of Terri Shivo (sorry about the spelling). I remember hearing her story on the radio, thinking to myself that I just could not imagine. Well...hear I am 24 years old my oldest son at the topic of discussion, my wife next to me with the baby on board, and precious Chaneille back home with auntie Mar. Grandparents in the room with exception of Jimmy having to way the three options. Three roads or journeys that I could not help but try to picture which one God would put us as a family, and which one would be the best outcome. I guess when we talk about paths or journeys, I have already taken the path that we know wouldn't be easy and we know is the path less traveled, but we know with all assurance that it has the best outcome, and thats why I choose to follow Christ. Now to try to figure out which path would be best for Cole and which path God wants us to follow now,was simply the hardest choice we ever hard to make. The doctors went through our options and explained it in this way. Decision 1. Make the decision to go ahead and accept the chemotherapy knowing that his body is not physically ready according to the doctors typical regiment, and knowing that his body being in his current position could very well lead to systematic organ failure, and being more succeptable to viruses as well as other side effects of the chemotherapy. Of course all of the typical side effects of the chemotherapy are there as well, which are too many things for me to really type out in a single journal. The thing about this decision from a medical stand point is that this truly is there last hope from the doctors perspective. Decision 2. The second decision was one that only added to the slew of thoughts going through our head. That decision was to continue with how he is doing currently. Taking it day by day hoping that he will make a full recovery from the surgery and that the tumors will not continue to take over his lungs. If he was to recover and be if you wish to call it, more on the healthy side then we could start chemotherapy at that time. The doctors gave us there best optimistic guess, and that was that he would have maybe two weeks to live. That is if the cancer continues on the path that it has been on. Decision 3. That option was to remove the breathing tube that he is currently on. If we would decide to go this route they told us that he would more than likely die with minutes from removal of the breathing tube. Once the doctors told me that everything just started spinning. Not realizing that his lungs are in that bad of shape that without the help of the breathing machine he would pass.

As you are probably able to tell this meeting was not what any of us wanted to be a part of. It was something that felt like a horrible dream and I was waiting for a horrible fall that I could suddenly wake up and realize that this wasn't happening. How could we know what God would want us to do? I couldn't help but to think back to when Cole was in Marshfield. The night that he was on the breathing tube and during his first round of chemotherapy. That night which both Moireen and I both just prayed...Dear Lord please take him home.. stop the pain and let him run and play like he should Lord. Please... But hear we are three weeks later. But more so since that time I could probably write for weeks on all of the special moments Cole had given all of us.. Like acknowledging to his grandpa that Jesus does love him, or when we were in marshfield and I was laying next to him, he leans towards dad...struggles to give me a hug and extends his lips to give me a kiss....then tells me he LOVES me to the moon and back..... Praise God!!! If I would have had it my way he would have been gone several days prior. Or all of the times cole just wanted us to hug him or hold him... or our last special walk we had with him where he sat in my arms and we just enjoyed every second of that... It sure was a blessing knowing that God truly has a plan. But now this.... how could we possibly make this decision..... the only thing that seemed reasonable to me was to go ahead and give him chance medically and accept the risks of chemotherapy. I couldn't picture myself at his funeral in a few weeks knowing that there could have been another chance. Cole we know that at this instant when I or Moireen ask you if you would like a hug and kiss... you give us a very affirmative yes.that we WILL NOT let go until we no longer have a choice. we will not give up until we can feel confident that it is your time to leave.....until then. your mother and I feel that God wants us to give the doctors the go ahead with the chemo. That hope that medicine can work....... I just got interrupted by the oncologist because she had the consent form for us to sign on behalf of the risks and the permission to go ahead with the chemo. Lord we pray for your blessings upon this decision, and Lord God we know that ultimately it is not no medicine and we have no other hope but to look to you for your healing upon Cole. We pray Lord for healing upon Coles body. More so God we Thank you for who you are and what you have already done on behalf of every one of us, we praise you Lord. In Jesus name we pray Amen. Aaron

Please continue to keep Cole and his family in your prayers.  This poor little guy is really struggling, and God only knows what his family is dealing with emotionally considering the choices they are facing.