I had/have those same feelings around me and my life both spiritually and emotionally with my family. I try to work hard everyday to make it a better day for all and for myself. When I am in church, those feelings do go away for that hour or so and I feel good. 'He' helps me through and through. Do you have the website or is it just reformer's anonymous.com?

I could also testify to the power of Christ in tearing down strongholds. "...the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to demolish strongholds. WE DESTROY ARGUMENTS AND EVERY LOFTY OPINION RAISED AGAINST THE KNOWLEDGE OF GOD, AND WE TAKE EVERY THOUGHT CAPTIVE TO OBEY CHRIST..." (2 Corinthians 10:3-5). I came to understand that every lie that contradicts what God says in His Word can become a stronghold. Thoughts that come to my mind and are in opposition to God's Word, I present them to the Lord: He washes me clean and replaces lies with Truth.